Chapter 19 -Part 3

Chapter 19
Part 3

Blair and Serena were in the bathroom fixing their lip gloss, talking about the night.
“Nate is being so perfect,” Blair went on. “It’s amazing! I just really am sorry about Dan.”
“Well, it’s okay. At least now, if he never calls me again, I won’t ever have to deal with Vanessa again.”
“But what I don’t understand is why he dumped you for her! I mean, you’re so much better.”
“Thanks, but I guess he just loved Vanessa all along.”
Suddenly, Jenny came into the restroom.
“Blair,” she said, “Can I talk to you for a second?”
“Jenny, I have nothing to say to you and I don’t want to hear a word that you have to say.” Blair made for the exit, but J stopped her.
“Will you just listen to me for a second?”
Serena kissed Blair on the cheek. “Meet me outside later,” she said before leaving. Blair waved, and then turned her attention to Jenny.
B crossed her arms and waited. “Talk.”
Jenny took a deep breath. “Blair,” she began, “I’m sorry for everything I did to you. I didn’t mean for anything to hurt you. The night of your birthday party, Nate and I just talked. We were both on the outs with you, and couldn’t bring ourselves to battle you; not on your birthday. And then, with the picture I sent to Gossip Girl, I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I was just so caught up in trying to impress you, that I got carried away.”
Blair stared at Jenny. “You seriously thought giving me and Chuck away to Gossip Girl would impress me?”
“No,” Jenny continued. “I just wanted you to be devastated, and come to me for support. I didn’t think about what would happen after that, and I should have. I only did it so you would need me. Blair, I’ve wanted you to need me for so long. And I was stupid, and willing to do anything to get your attention.” J looked desperately at Blair.
“Fair enough,” Blair said finally. “I appreciate you apologizing and explaining it all to me, but that doesn’t make what you did okay. You betrayed me, Little J. After all I did for you; after everything I handed to you on a silver platter, you decided to throw it all away and ruin me.”
Tears started rolling down Jenny’s cheeks. “I didn’t mean to ruin you, Blair. I just wanted to mean something to you. And there’s nothing in this world I want more than for you to forgive me.”
Blair stared at Jenny, thinking. Finally, she said, “Jenny, if you’re going to live in this world, you can’t betray the people who keep you here. If it weren’t for me, you would still be living your boring little Brooklyn life, and hanging out at Wal-Mart with your loser friends. You need to learn to respect the elite, Little J. They can make you and destroy you with a snap of their fingers. I’ve made you, Jenny, and I really don’t want to destroy you. You have so much potential here; I’d hate to see you give it all away.”
Jenny wiped her eyes. “I’m sorry, Blair. I really am. I… I really want you to accept me. All I’ve ever wanted is for you to accept me.”
Blair sighed. “You remind me of Serena. You completely ruin everything, and then come running back, expecting to be forgiven. Of course, with Serena, she’s my best friend. And she really wanted to change. So I gave her the gift of forgiving her. Now, the question is, are you important enough to me to be forgiven?”
Jenny’s lip quivered. “I really want to be,” she said, her voice shaking.
Blair’s eyes softened. “We’re friends, Jenny. And I want to keep it that way. I don’t want to hate you, because then you’ll have to fight me. And you’re no match for me. You’d get scorned. But I do think our friendship can be salvaged.”
Jenny looked up at Blair. “Really? I mean, thank you so much, Blair.”
“Of course,” B continued, “You’ll need to work for it, but maybe you can be accepted back in.”
“Oh, thank you, Blair! You don’t know how much this means to me!”
“But I’m warning you, Jenny.” Blair’s voice turned cold again. “One more time, and it’ll be suicide. Social suicide, that is. But really, I think that’s the worst kind.”
“Don’t worry. I swear on my life. I’ll never do anything to cross you ever again.” Jenny was smiling and crying, all at the same time.
“You better not. Because I just gave you your last chance, and you don’t know how unforgiving I can be.”
“I promise, Blair. No more. I’ll be faithful and loyal to you forever.”
Blair smiled. “Good.” She held out her arms. Jenny came running into them. After a very emotional hug, the two went back outside. Serena saw them, and came over. Blair explained to her what happened.
“Well, that’s good,” Serena said, relieved. “I just hate it when someone’s on your bad side, Blair.” The girls laughed, and headed back into the crowd. Jenny, now newly accepted back into Blair’s life, followed eagerly.